Why Can’t I Relax?

Yes, I did trim this bush myself. Edward Scissorhands beware.

Yes, I did trim this bush myself.

Not bad for an amateur!

Not bad for an amateur! Not really, my yard guy did this one.

I spend most of my workweek looking forward to the weekend. Time to relax and kick back I say to myself. I’ve earned it as I contribute more than my fair share of a 40-hour workweek.

That being said, why is it that I can’t relax? When Saturday morning comes, I feel guilty that I didn’t get up earlier to get some chores done. I get up and put the laundry in. I always reason with myself that laundry really isn’t work. The washing machine does it for me. Then, I go outside to clean our outdoor furniture thinking I will enjoy this later. After that, I go get my dirt devil carpet cleaner and try to get some stains out of our rug. Naturally, I have to clean up the bathroom and take out the garbage.

It’s an 80-degree gorgeous day in my backyard. Finally, I sit to enjoy our little lake. I pick up my book and start to read. My eyes wander over to the bushes under my window. “They are blocking the view,” I think to my self. Before my pear cider is half gone, I get up and start trimming them.

I know what you are thinking. “What is wrong with me? Is this woman crazy? Why can’t she simply sit back and relax for a couple of hours?”

I know I am not alone in this dilemma. I am accustomed to working at a very fast pace and it spills over into my personal life. After all, getting a project done gives me a great sense of accomplishment. The problem is that I often miss “people” or “restful” opportunities.

Would it hurt me to stop and converse with my husband? Would the world stop if I sat and chatted with a good friend over the phone? Could I stop and listen to my favorite seventies channel on Pandora?

My pledge is to be more mindful of balance. My pledge is not to feel guilty when I relax, as I know I have to balance my work with periods of rest. Without this, I will not be energized for the coming week.I trust you will do the same.





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3 Responses to Why Can’t I Relax?

  1. Jan Wagley says:

    WE all have been there and it is difficult to relax I still have some of these issues, there just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in a day to get it all done ~!! Then you get older and the ole gray mare she ain’t what she use to be. ~!! Boy what a learning experience ~!! Please take sometime to smell the roses ~!!

  2. Sue says:

    Thanks for your post. Learning to relax is really hard work. I think that some of us were raised with a very strong work ethic, and it is hard to let go a bit, even though the kids may be gone and we don’t have the parental responsibilities that we used to have. I’m practicing, but is does feel a little odd to just be still and not to think of all of the things that need to be (or could potentially) be accomplished.

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